Alyssa & Sierra: With time comes understanding... I hope

I first want to say that I am sorry that I have not posted in a while. I have been trying to finish many things, first of all my degree... YEAH I am FINALLY done. I know have my batchlor's in accounting. This is huge for me since I have been going to school while I am a mom and working. If that was not enough, we have been dealing with some more issues. (I have not participated in the ceremony, just have my cap and gown now).

Ok, that was the good news. For a while now, doctors, WIC, and the girl's SoonerStart nurse have all been concerned about Sierra. She is not gaining weight like she should. We have been trying many different things, and it has been determined that it is not in the lack of food that she eats. She is now being seen by a infant genelogist to see if it is something more serious. It is getting bad because as they do tests, they get harder on her. The first one was not so bad, they did some blood work to see if it was a hormonal imbalance. That came back negative. You would think that would make me happy, but it just makes me more scared. Because the test came back negative, she now has to undergo harder tests. I am so scared.

Sierra has two tests coming up, and I am so scared of them. I try not to let her know because I do not want her to pick them up, plus her smiles let me forget for a while. Anyway, she has to undergo a MRI. This is not scarry except for the fact that they have to put her under anesthia. This scares me so much. I do not want them to put my daughter to sleep, even for a little while. The MRI is also on her brain. Sierra has flat skull syndrome. This means that one part of her skull is flat. The main thing is that most babies that have this have a part that pertrudes out the front or top of the head on the same side due to pressure from the skull on the brain. Apparantly, the brain shapes the skull, and this indicates that she may have a brain abnormality.

The other test is not so harsh. She has to have a ultrasound of her chest and abdomen. This does not bother me at all because this does not require her to be put to sleep. It is also very fast, unless they find something.

Other than this, the girls are doing great. Alyssa is gaining weight, and is now over 16 pounds. Her sister is only 13 pounds. They are also both almost 10 months old. They can sit up on their own, support their own weight on their feet (but no balance yet), and roll over. Sierra is a little roly poly because she just rolls everywhere. If we are not watching her closely, she rolls under the tables.

Alyssa also has a new friend, our cat. Garfield just loves her. He is always by her.