Thursday, October 30, 2008

Hubby tag

I saw this on Kaden and Angel Ava's website. I agree with you Amy, this is a great way to show our love for our husbands.


Here is my Handsome Husband




1. Full Name: I really rather not give it all, but his name is Gary.

2. How long we have been married: We just celebrated our 3rd anniversary in September.

3. How long did we date: 3 years

4. Who eats the sweets: I am the major sweet eater, but Gary will eat them on special occasions, and cookies occasionally.

5.Who said "I Love You" first: That would be me. I did not mean for it to come out, but it did in a phone message. I told him that I would meet him somewhere, then ended it with I Love You. I did not even realize that I said it until he told me. How silly is that.

6. Who's Taller: Uhh...Duh that would be Gary. I am so short. He pretty much towers over me at close to 6 feet, and I am only 5'2.

7. Who sings better: That one is me. I love to hear him sing as he does not do it very often, but he tells me all the time that I am the better singer.

8. Who is smarter: That depends. I believe there is all kinds of smarts. Gary is definately common sense smart, and I am book smart.

9. Who does the laundry: Right now, both of us. But mostly, it is Gary. I lucked out there.

10. Who pays the bills: This would also be Gary. He is better with personal finance, or should I say more anal about it. He stays on top of things like that. Kind of funny considering that I am studying to be an accountant.

11. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed: This use to be me, but we now have the playpen in our room for our daughters, and it can only be on the Left side as that is the only place we have room, so we have switched.

12. Who moes the lawn: This is also Gary. I was never taught how to do this obscure chore, even though I love the smell of fresh cut grass. Go fig.

13. Who cooks dinner: This is me!!! Gary does the dishes, most of the time, after.

14. Who drives: Most of the time this is Gary. I get really sleepy on long car trips and have dozed at the wheel, so it is much safer for Gary to drive. Now if I could just get him to slow down a little. :)

15. Who admits when they are wrong: This would be both of us, but usually Gary first.

16. Who asked who out first: We both kind of did. We met through a dating service, and he was charged with calling me up. We talked for hours before he said "What the h***", and I said immediatly after "lets meet up". We met at the mall close to where I lived at the time, and the rest is as you can say, history.

17. Who wears the pants: I have a funny saying about this. It is that he can wear the pants just as long as he remembers who washed them (being me on a nice day). We have a role reversal in our house, and I usually get my way, but Gary does as well when it is important. Most of the time we compromise.

18. What does he do that surprises you: I have never had anyone just be there for me. It sounds lame, but even when we are arguing, I know that he is just trying to figure out how to stand with me. He does the housework, or most of it, and he brags about me going to school and completing my degree. He encourages me to succeed, and he is there in a hundred little ways, but occasionally misses the big ones. I would say that it is not what he does that surprises me, but simply who he is.

19. What is your favorite feature on him: I would say his eyes. It is what first got me. When he is talking to me or looking at me, you can see the world in them, and I am the center of it. Now, it is me and his daughter that are. Just look at the picture above and you can see what I am talking about. He focuses in on what he sees, and that is it for him.

20.What is your favorite quality he has: He is an awesome listener. This is what will make him a great dad when the girls get old enough to talk.

21. Does he have a nickname for you: Just the usual ones.

22. What is his favorite food: This is so easy, he is my spaghetti man.

23. What is his favorite sport: He loves to watch football and basketball, but he only plays videogames.

24. What is your favorite thing to do as a couple: We like to watch movies and play on the Wii together. I am sure this is going to change when the girls get older though. It is nice that the simple things is what we most enjoy though.

25. Does he have any hidden talents: His ability to take things in stride and continue to push on no matter what. I would have to say that is one h*** of a talent.

26. What do you admire most about him: His ability to listen. I know this seems silly, but it is an excellent quality that I think is missing in many people. Myself included.

27. What is his favorite color: blue or green

28. How did he propose: Ok, this is odd and it seemed to be horrible to me at the time. I was with him when he purchased the ring. I got tired of waiting for him to find the "right" time as he said, so I set the scene for him. I took him out to the most romantic italian restaurant in the city, named Belini's, then brought him home for a carpet picnic of chocolate covered strawberries (that I made myself), and sparkling white grape juice. I had candles lit on the floor around the blanket that we used. We were just laying there then he told me that he did not want to be my boyfriend anymore. I asked him what, he repeated, then I said I got that and was wondering what he ment, he repeated again. I got angry and asked him when he wanted me to move out then. He said, no, you don't get it, I don't want to be your boyfriend anymore. I said I get it, well, I yelled it. He then said, I want to be more, will you marry me. It is starting to seem funny and special now, but at the time I was really mad, and said yes you idiot. ( I don't really think that he is an idiot, but I was really mad, what can I say?)

I love you so much sweetheart. The best decision I ever made was to say yes to you. I am proud of our lives and love you more than anything. Our daughters have a GREAT father.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Thoughts...

Tomorrow, we take Sierra's casts off permanently. I am so excited. Yes, she is still being treated, but it will be shoes that we can take off for increasing periods of time, and I will get to give her actual baths instead of sponge ones. (She really hates sponge baths.) It seems kind of silly, but it feels like she will be more of a normal kid then.
I am still concerned with how she will walk, and have decided that if she needs it, she will go into dance to help her learn muscle control when she gets older. I am hoping that she does not have a "funny" walk due to the casts and braces. I want her to have everything, and I know how cruel kids can be.
Alyssa is doing good, I just wish that she would start to "chunk up" as Sierra has done. Alyssa definitely has her daddy's build and metabolism. The kid EATS. Breastfeeding now takes about an hour to complete. It is a really long time to just sit there, but I get to stare at their beautiful faces and know that it is worth every minute.
Well, starting tomorrow, I go back to the classroom for school. It will be the first time that their daddy has to take care of them at night for a few hours alone. I am nervous about this as he panics when they cry and looks to me to tell him what might be wrong. I know it comes from not wanting to do something wrong, but it still makes me a little nervous. I also know that I will miss them dreadfully, but know that in a way it is preparing me to go back to work soon. The day is rapidly approaching, and I do not want to have to. I know that I must, but I know I will worry constantly until I get to see them at the end of the day.
I know this jumps from subject to subject, but that is how it came to me. I will post before and after photos of Sierra's feet soon. Until then...
I love you girls so much, and am so proud to be your mommy.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Casts, Braces, and a long wait....

Well, here is an update from the doctors on Sierra.
The surgery is pretty much eliminated.
She is on her either her last or second to last cast... YEAH!!!
She will have to wear special shoes for 2 to 6 years... Yikes.

OK, here is an explanation of the last item. Due to the casts, I found out that all kids that undergo this treatment develop atrophy in the foot, or in this case, feet, and in the calf muscle. she is going to have to wear shoes with a brace that goes up her legs for a couple of years. she will be able to crawl and walk with the braces, and the amount of time will start out 24-7, then will gradually decrease until she does not have to wear them.

So, in closing, the good news is that she is coming out of her casts soon, and her feet will be healed, mostly. Now, we will just have to build up strength in her legs so she can behave as a normal kid. Boy, will we be glad when this is over.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

6 weeks old and thinking back...

I got to thinking the other day about how my childhood was a prequel to having my daughters. It is strange, but when I was growing up and playing with dolls my friends would play with one baby, while I always insisted on 2. I would tell everyone that one day I would have twins. I was eight and telling everyone what would one day come to pass. I did not use the names that I had picked out then, Sara and Tara. I am glad that I didn't too. My daughters do not look like those names. I just thought that it was strange that I knew I would not have a single birth.

Well, my daughters are 6 weeks old on Friday. It is strange looking back on what it was like with them in the hospital. At times, it feels like it was just a bad dream. Then, when they are fussing the most, I occasionally want them back there so I can get some sleep. I do not want their health to be back there, just the extra help that I had while they were in the hospital. I knew that a nurse was close by to answer my fears, and to help me with them. I did not have the worries that I do now. Am I doing everything right? Am I providing them everything they need? Are they growing right? Am I providing enough food for them since I am breastfeeding? Etc... All of my answers were right there, and everything was monitored. I am scared that I am doing something wrong, but keep doing just to try to do my best for them.

On a more positive note, my family has been having fears about my cat. They are afraid that he is going to hurt them. OK, my cat is psychotic (he runs for no reason, and attacks insects through the glass, and he thinks he is a hairdresser), but actually it is strange. He just goes up to the girls, sniffs them, then either walks away or sits close to them watching them. It is like he is saying, I don't know who they are but they are small and I will protect them. He did the same with me while I was pregnant. He was just always there. It was actually kind of comforting, and I think that even then he knew they were coming. He does not bother them, and does not really come near them, just is near by as if to say that if he is needed, he is there.

Well, it is also the end of the third week of treatment for Sierra, and I am anxious to find out how her feet are doing. I will let you know later.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Women's Health Month

Many people are aware of this being Breast Cancer awareness month, but I propose it being changed to women's health month. I propose this because there are more things than breast cancer that kill women. In fact, women are more likely to die from a heart related issue than men, and there are other diseases that affect women, while they may not be killers, they certainly are not very well heard of and can cause other problems in their lives. I have one such disease.
It is called PCOS. This stands for poly cystic ovarian syndrome. The disease is rare, and causes problems with reproduction, lactation, and can eventually cause infertility. This is in part how I got my twins. I was diagnosed with PCOS prior to getting pregnant when we found out that I was not producing eggs. They ran several tests to try to find out why I was not ovulating, and come to find out, I had this disease. Luckily, I was not too far along in this disease, because then I would not have had my daughters.
What happens is that as the disease progresses, it causes the walls of the ovaries to harden, eventually not allowing eggs to pass causing the ovaries to shut down completely. If caught early enough, children can still be a possibility, but it has to be caught. Many of the symptoms are similar to that of endometriosis or simple cysts. The difference is that for people with PCOS, the cysts do not form naturally, they start out as an egg that partially develops then mutates into a cyst that ruptures out onto the outside of the ovary. The cyst eventually ruptures, causing scar tissue to form on the ovary. This scar tissue hardens the walls of the ovaries, which makes it difficult for an egg to pass.
Like with most female organ problems, pregnancy can eliminate the problem, but not always. I still do not know if I have the disease, and it will not be found out until I have another cyst rupture. I hope that my pregnancy did correct it, but if not, then I have been given the gift of them.
I just wanted others to be aware of this disease. If I had been more aware of it, then I could have suggested I get tested for it when the problem started and I might not have had to have the fertility treatments to get pregnant. Thank god that they were able to work though. I love my daughters very much and am happy that I am able to have them in my husband's and my life.