It wont be like this for long...

I have added a new song to my play list on this blog, and I can not believe how true it is.

The words of the song include feelings about how things are in the beginning, where you have lack of sleep and constant worrying that keep you up all night, to a toddler holding on afraid of the unknown, to a teenager who hates their parents, to a father finally walking their girl down the aisle. The overall impact is that time is short.

While living in the moment, we often take for granted the moment. With a crying child, or in my case children, we are trying to rush past that stage and look forward to the day when we can look back and laugh over it. We look forward to the first word, first smile, first steps, and tend to miss all the little accomplishments in between.

I picked this song as a reminder to myself, my husband, and my family about how precious time is. You start by trying to hurry up the hard times, but miss the precious minutes that you are given in that persons life. Being the parent of an infant is hard. Often times we do not know what our child (children :)) need, want, or the important decisions that we have to make for them. We can not get their input and just have to try the best that we can to meet the demands and hope that we do the right thing. We tend to focus so much on the problems that we forget to enjoy the time we do have. How precious it is to just hold your child to your heart and know that no matter what that child loves you. It is truly a gift from GOD.

I look back on the struggle we have had for the past 6 months, then I look at people who do not know the joy that came with it. Who may never experience it, and you know what. It was not that bad. Sure, caring for twins is difficult, I will never state different, but I get to experience their joys and sorrows, their exploration of the world, and in a way get to revisit my own childhood and make the changes that my parents were unable to. I get to be the one that they confide in, and trust in, and right now, for just this brief instant, their world. How much more could anyone ask for?

I believe that at all times people are just looking for that one chance to be everything for someone, but when it occurs it is overwhelming. The only true time you can be someones everything is during their infant stage. Before you know it, they need you less and less as they become more independent.

At 6 months of age, my daughters are progressing. They are starting to need me less. Currently, Alyssa can hold her bottle, and fully support her weight standing (she just needs us for balance), and roll onto her stomach (she just can't roll back). Sierra can untie her shoes, comfort her sister, and roll over (but again can't roll back).

So, for all of you struggling parents, myself included, here is a little reminder. It won't be like this for long...