Monday, September 22, 2008

And the times get tougher...

Well, this last Friday, Sierra started treatment for her club feet. It is hard to deal with because she is in casts that start at her feet and go up to her hips. The doctor told us that it is harder on us than her, but I know my baby girl is hurting. The first night was so tough. We could not do anything for her other than soothe her. I can not tell her that it is better that it get fixed now, that the pain will be shorter this way, that it is for the best, or any of the things parents want to tell their child when they know they are hurting. All I can do is stare at this precious angel and know she is in pain and I can not do anything to help. I have discovered that the old saying, "this is going to hurt me more than you", to fit in this instance. She is fine with the cast now, but I know when the new one this week gets put on, it is going to be a repeat. I know that this is going to probably hurt even more, because we now know what is going to happen, but our little girl does not.

The girls had their check-up today, and the doctor said that they are doing well. They have both gained weight. Alyssa had to have her billiruben checked again, her jaundice is back, but appears to be mild. Sierra is doing well other than her feet. The nurses at the office all fell in love with the girls, and shortly after we walked in, the girls had a mini-parade where every nurse saw them. It was quite funny, and sweet how everyone was taken with them. I just stood there and watched all the nurses follow this routine of sanitize, hold a baby, pass, repeat. It was cute.

I am still waiting on the results of Alyssa's bloodwork and Sierra will get a new cast later this week. Sierra will be getting a new one every week for a while, and they said that treatment will last 2 to 4 months. I am hoping that it is closer to the 2 month time frame.

Girls, Daddy and I love you very much, and I know we will be able to look back on all of this and think it was not so hard, but right now, with everything that you both have been through, it is tough for all of us. We love you and do not want to see you in pain. Daddy even cried when he saw you, Sierra, in so much pain. It is so hard for us to see that. We don't want to do anything that causes either of you any pain, but know that in this case we must. Keep that smile on. We love to see it.

Love,
Mommy and Daddy

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Did you know Kristi Yamaguchi was born with club feet. Look at her now! (I learned of this from Dancing with the Stars).

Stephanie, Colorado

SonnysWife0307 said...

love the new pictures and im praying for sierra.... and of course alyssa too love yall ttyl:D

leslie

mommy to Kaden, Brody and angel Ava said...

That is the worst feeling in the world...feeling, wanting and needing to help your baby but not able to. Hopefully the casts are just uncomfortable, more then they cause pain. Your right, if you do it now, it won't need to be done later and she will not remember any of it.

Unknown said...

Very cute pictures!! A picture of baby sleeping on daddy while he sleeps on the couch is always a classic! It's always hard to see them uncomfortable but times flies and you will be so happy when it's over.